Isn't Life Strange?

Ok...so I sound like a Moody Blues song but bear with me. I know only a select few read this so now that I have a captive audience I have something to say. Since no one really asked how I feel or what I think I have been keeping relativly quiet but everyone else has something to say...so why not join in the discussion? All my life I have been expected to put others first. I haven't always made the best choices but what I did was done out of love and concern for my family. There is no one who can honestly say that my children didn't come first in my life. The choices I made (good or bad) were always made with what I thought were the best of intentions. Would I have done things differently? Maybe...but you can't rewrite the past. Life is not easy...but it's not a spectator sport either. You have to just dive right in and sink or swim. Alot of life involves learning as you go. And all we can ask of ourselves is to be forgiving . No one has all the answers and no one is right all the time...at least not on earth. I can't help but wonder though if I was ever right. I tried the best I knew how to raise my children with love and kindness and respect. But maybe I failed to teach them that life is messy and unpredictable and other people aren't always going to be nice to you, aren't always going to do what you want them to do.....but you love them anyway. Because that is what love is. It's celebrating with them when they are happy and riding out the storms with them when the sky is dark. Because there are always dark times in our lives. Love isn't controlling others...it's not a means of extortion. When you love someone what you are doing is accepting them for who and what they are...all their assests and all their liabilities. It's looking at the world through their eyes sometimes too and learning more about ourselves in the process. It's a way of saying...I am not perfect and it's okay if you aren't perfect either. Lately people have been standing in line to point out my faults. And if you think that doesn't hurt me you are wrong. I am no different than you...I want and need to be accepted for who I am. A part of me will always feel like a mother...but there is so much more to me than that. Every day is a new day...a new chapter to a book that is constantly being written. My life didn't end when yours began . There is still so much for me to see and do...still so much for me to live for. There is one important thing I think i forgot to teach you and that is that happiness is up to you...no person can make you happy....you choose to be happy or not....just as you choose to be forgiving or not. I am happy to have shared my life with you guys and I love you all very much . Have I always been happy with your choices?...no but that doesn't change my love for you. I admit that at first I was upset that you all were giving me such a hard time because I was happy and I couldn't understand why you weren't happy for me even though you weren't happy with the situation. But that's another thing about love...you love someone because you do...not because you expect them to love you back. And I do love you all. Maybe someday you will understand.

I Didn't Know You Cared

Wow....nice to see I am so popular. Too bad I live so far away.

Is Anyone Out There?

Just testing.........